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Hy, how are you??? I hope you're fine always. Its about one of my close friend, but it makes me realize that people will always come and go in everyone's life, also in my life. He still being my friend now but were just not really close like before.  We've been already friends for around five years and We still catch up for while through phone at least for asking "how are you" cause we're apart. The first day I met him I was thinking that he's just like  a bad boy but its really look like a bad boy until we often talk more about life and going more closer for each other. I realize something that He was so nice but it still with his style of bad boy for me. The years passed and I catch up again when I just broke up with my ex and till today we're still being a good friend (maybe). So its just an opening to story I wanted to write here.  He always tell me the story of his daily life after He's done of doing work, sometimes He tell me about the things...

It's always starting by saying "Hai or Hello and asking how's life going?" I'm back and I'm happy to knowing that I still here to write a lot of things here in this blog, its called a blessing. Honestly, I don't know what to write here today but it feels like I have a lot of stories to tell you. Actually  am not a good storyteller but am tryna to write it in a good way and a good plot of stories. It starting from when I just finished my study at high school. I'm thinking of not furthering my education but my father told me to continue my education and choose the program study I wanted to go. I choose an English Litrature, I don't know why but honestly I'm avoiding of education study program ehhe. It's not that easy to find a university as I come from the background of family that no one having a chance to continue the education to some university but then my parent was the first one who gave this little princess a chance to continue her edu...

Hy, how are you??? I hope you were good as well Its just a little letter for myself to remember that I've ever been that strong that days. Thankyou for reading this blog and hope it can gives you lessons.  I don't have many stories in July but there's a lot of lessons I learned in this month even its just from a little thing. It was amazing month I've ever passed with a lot of my hard days when I got schedule to work till the middle of the night, when I've prepared to join the reunion but the schedule was ignored, and still a lot of things happen in this month. I'm happy to knowing that I'm brave, strong, professional and I'm so proud of myself. I really do. I'm 23 years old and going to be 24 on October, I know that being an adult was not easy, when I have to take care a lot of things only by myself and to be honest its really hard for me but how happy I am that I can get through those days. Many things to come and to leave but one thing I should re...

Hy, how are you??? Hope you're doing good and so do I. It's been along time seen the last time I posted on April and haven't write many stories here again but today gonna be a lot of stories about me and my life. First thing first, I thank you for having time to read my blog and I hope you never get bored of reading these texts. So here we go. The things I want to tell is about my journey when I was still stay at home with no job, no money, nothing much to do, all I do is just looking for a job through social media platform and any other application, going for some interview and still a lot of things that can be doing with anyone with no job like me until the day I opened up a platform of jobseeker that I usually used and found out my application is prossesed. The day after that I got an invitation for interview and having a Forum Group Discussion (FGD), then announced on the same day that I passed the test and going to have a training day for two weeks. After I passed my t...

Hi, how are you doing??? I'm doing good and I hope you're doing good too. Thank you for the time you give to reading my blog and you know for sure why I'm supposed to make this blog, exactly for sharing about myself even though it doesn't really matter for anyone to know. Sorry for sharing about love a lot lately, I just wanna let anyone know that they deserve a lot of love, and they don't even deserve to feel the pain. It's about how worth your time to wait for love. It's always worth it when you wait for some reason they wanted to prove, but it's not worth it if you wait for no reason or just a promise. I know that you can't simply decide whether to wait or let them go, cause it's hard and frustrating sometimes. It requires a lot of patience and a willingness to be vulnerable. It's just like a never-ending journey with no guarantee at all, but it can be a good chance to get yourself better and how worthy you are to wait for them. You are wo...

Hy, how are you??? I don't know how to say it, but I'm sorry if I'm missing you, and really do. I know that we've been apart for almost two years. Isn't it sad when I have to end up with my 3 years of relationship and I haven't really moved on??? Exactly yes, but I always enjoy the process of moving on. I accept every feeling I had when it comes to him, sometimes I miss the moment, I miss the night when we're talking by call and telling everything we've done in a day, or even asking for some solution when we have some problem, and everything reminds me so good cause it's YOU. Last night, I ask for my friend to call him and He really made it happen. We're having a long conversation till almost 2 am. He told me a lot about how he misses me sometimes and he has to force himself to lose that feeling alone because he knows that he's not the one for me anymore, he told me about how he passes his hard day alone and he's really a good guy to me, ...

Haii, apa kabarr??? Semoga kabar baik selalu menyertaimu dan makasih karna masih mau baca tulisanku yang masih banyak kurangnya. So enjoy the reading!!! Setiap orang pasti punya pengalaman tentang cinta yang berbeda - beda, tapi kalian pernah gaksi ngalamin jatuh "Cinta Sendiri"??? Mungkin nggak banyak juga yaa yang pernah ngalamin, karna kadang jatuh cinta sendiri itu nggak bener - bener terjadi. Bisa jadi sebenernya mereka itu punya rasa yang sama tapi gengsi aja untuk saling ngungkapinnya, atau mungkin cowoknya udah ngungkapin tapi ceweknya sok jual mahal, padahal sebenernya mereka punya rasa yang sama dan terbalaskan satu sama lain. Susah emang yaa kalau berurusan sama orang gengsian.  Tapi kalau suatu saat nanti ternyata kamu tau kalau kamu jatuh cinta sendiri, jangan dilanjut yaa karna cinta itu selalu dari dua arah, bukan cuma dia atau kamu sendiri. Mempersatukan dua manusia dengan banyak perbedaan itu nggak mudah, karna kita nggak akan pernah tau nanti ditengah jalan ...

 Hy, apa kabar??? Semoga kabar baik selalu menyertaimu dan makasih ya buat nggak bosen baca tulisan aku yang masih banyak kurangnya and you may leave a comment!!! Kalau ngomongin  soal rumah, mungkin setiap manusia memiliki banyak opini yang akan selalu berbeda dengan yang lainnya karna mereka pasti punya cita - cita tentang rumah yang ingin mereka tinggali  suatu hari nanti dan mungkin definisi rumah yang kamu mau saat ini nggak ada di aku atau mungkin memang bukan aku yang kamu mau.  Sebuah definisi yang mungkin banyak orang tau tentang rumah adalah sebuah tempat tinggal atau tempat perlindungan bagi manusia yang terdiri dari beberapa ruangan seperti ruang tidur, ruang tamu, ruang dapur dan lain sebagainya. Rumah juga memiliki peran penting dalam kehidupan manusia, karna didalamnya manusia bisa beristirahat, berkumpul bersama keluarga dan saling bertukar cerita. Selain itu, rumah juga bisa mengubah pandangan kita tentang kepribadian seseorang atau gaya hidup p...

Hy, how are you??? I hope everything is doing well. Again and again, am thinking a lot about LOVE lately. I don't have the exact reason why, but it's driving me to overthink sometimes. Disclaimer: The story I wrote here is not always about me, but sometimes it comes from my friends and took me to write here in my blog.  I don't think that love will be very complicated for some people sometimes, but it comes to me and makes me thinking about someone who I need to be in my future life. They said love is easy when they fall for each other, but it seems to be so hard when they fall alone. If that love is a choice and you put them into choices, then choose one and fight for them because you can't bring it all with you when you know you'll hurt them in the end.  Love is always about feelings, as simple as we feel safe, comforted, and loved when they stay by our side. Feeling loved is always put you in a happy life instead of feeling blue when they give you pain and break ...

 As always haiii, apa kabar??? Semoga kabar baik selalu menyertaimu dan makasi udah nggak bosen baca ceritaku yang sebenernya banyak nggak jelasnya daripada hikmahnya. Emm jujur sebenernya lagi banyak bingungnya akhir - akhir ini, nggak tau apa sebabnya tapi ya mungkin nggak jauh pasti lagi - lagi soal hati. Nggak tau juga harus mulai dari mana, tapi mari kita coba jabarkan yaaa.  Aku nggak tau pasti apa yang sebenernya aku pikirin, tapi kayak complicated banget di kepala aku. Mungkin seharusnya hal ini nggak perlu dipikirin juga tapi lebih tepatnya butuh divalidasi aja, apakah hal yang aku alamin ini wajar atau nggak. Bukan perihal kehidupan, tapi ini perihal perasaan. Perasaan ini datang tanpa diundang dan dipaksa pergi karna seseorang yang tiba - tiba menghilang. Mudah aja sebenernya buat aku mau mengutarakan perasaan ini tapi mungkin rasa takut yang aku punya mengalahkan semuanya. Aku takut kalau perasaan yang aku punya akan menghancurkan apa yang udah aku jaga selama ini....

Hai, apa kabar??? Semoga kabar baik selalu menyertaimu dan jangan bosen baca tulisan aku juga, yaa walaupun sebenernya lebih banyak gak jelasnya dari pada manfaatnya, maklumin aja yaa karna aku bukan penulis handal seperti yang lainnya. Tulisan ini nggak aku tujukan untuk siapapun, tapi mungkin bisa relate sama kalian yang lagi sering dapet pertanyaan perihal "kenapa masih sendiri?". Simpelnya mungkin bisa aja aku jawab "yaa karna hidup itu pilihan dan aku memilih untuk sendiri dulu". Bukan tanpa alasan dan bukan berarti aku akan sendiri terus, lebih tepatnya aku belum siap untuk memulai kembali. It's not about my past but it's about myself because I don't need any drama in my life, especially in a relationship .  Tapi kalo ngomongin soal umur dan di umur aku yang udah menginjak 23 tahun ini mungkin udah cukup dewasa untuk tau seseorang yang sebenernya aku butuhkan dalam hidup aku kedepannya. Bukan lagi perihal kesempurnaan fisik, tapi lebih kepada seseo...

Hy kamu, yang katanya pernah patah hati, sini - sini kumpul dulu dong!!! Ngomongin soal patah hati itu sakit yaa sebenernya, tapi ya mau gimanapun pada akhirnya kita harus menerima dan berdamai  dengan keputusan untuk fokus sama diri masing - masing. Banyak perubahan yang mungkin terjadi setelah hari itu, mulai dari hal sederhana sampe hal spesial yang mungkin berbekas ketika mereka sudah bukan lagi milik kita. Berat memang, tapi jika sudah takdirnya yaa kita bisa apa dan kalo kata temen aku, yaudah move on aja. Aku nggak tau persis definisi move on itu apa, tapi memang butuh proses yang nggak sebentar dan tergantung juga, antara move on dengan cara cari yang baru atau move on sendiri dulu. Mungkin ada beberapa orang yang berpikir kalo kita ketemu sama orang yang baru itu bisa lebih cepet move onnya dan nggak sedikit juga dari mereka yang memilih untuk menyembuhkannya sendiri tanpa menghadirkan orang baru untuk mewujudkannya. Bicara persoalan cinta itu nggak akan pernah ada habisny...

Hy, apa kabar kamu hari ini?  Pertanyaan "apa kabar?" sering mereka tanyakan ketika mereka sudah lama tidak berjumpa dengan kita, tapi terkadang mereka lupa untuk menanyakan "apakah kamu sudah bahagia hari ini?" atau mungkin mereka hanya ingin basa basi aja tanpa ingin tau tentang apa yang sebenarnya terjadi dengan kita, dan dari banyaknya manusia yang ada di dunia, mereka hanya ingin tau apa yang mereka lihat hari ini tanpa ingin tau apa yang sudah kita lewati hari - hari sebelumnya. Jadi, sampai sini paham yaaa kalau pada akhirnya kitalah yang bertanggung jawab atas diri kita sendiri, dan bukan oranglain, sekalipun mereka orang - orang terdekat kita. It dosen't mean they don't care about us but they don't even in your position and not even in its situation.  Mereka bukan tidak peduli, melainkan mereka tidak ingin merusak apa yang sudah menjadi privasi diri kita, mereka mengerti akan batas privasi orang terdekatnya. Mereka lebih memilih untuk menunggu d...

I am going to write about a relationship that might you go with and I don't know whether it's right for you or not but am just writing this on my blog. I have ever been in a relationship with someone for 3 years but it ends up because of some misunderstandings. Am happy that he ever been in my life for years but it is a little bit sad about the ending. I know that everything would never be good as we planned before but that's how good is God.   Talking about relationships, it can simply define that a relationship is a close connection between two people in a romantic way. They said that love is easy, love is happy, and love is beautiful when we fallin' for the right one, but what if we fallin' for the wrong person? Isn't it would be hard, painful, and blind for some of them. I found a quote about relationships that "high-quality close relationships contribute to mental and physical well-being while poor quality close relationships create stress and undermin...

Hy everyone, I'm going to share you about my journey in accomplishing my bachelor's degree, and here is the story began. I hope you enjoy it. I have been graduated from senior high school in 2017 but I have to dedicate my knowledge to another boarding school as a requirement to get the certificate of my senior high school and I finished it in 2018. That Boarding School was located in the countryside far from the city and I have to spend around 12 hours getting there. It's not that easy to spend my whole life in the countryside I've never been there before. I have to stay there for a year and I teach an English lesson there, especially for classes 7 to 9, and I also teach an Arabic lesson for class 11.  It is such a great experience I have when I can meet them, teach them a lot, talk, and share about anything in life till the day I have to go for some tests to get into my dream university. I start the journey in 2018 and I got the first test in Sukabumi with my friend by...

Hy everyone!!! How was life? I'm good and I hope you do. You can guess how I feel today and yup, I didn't say that my day was great but everything in my life is doing well. Lately, I feel really lost and I don't know what to do next. I don't have any idea or plan. Just wake up in the morning and clean up my home, helping my mother with other stuff to do. Afterward, open my phone and look for a job.  I am a job seeker and it's not that easy to find any job dealing with my degree as an English Literature Fresh Graduate, some of them said that a fresh graduate in my field is going to be a teacher because they only know about the "English Language" we have is only enough for teaching, instead there's a lot of company out there are need employee with English skill like me, but I can't guarantee that all of the students who graduated in this field is having a great English skill, but I think I can guarantee my English skill is in "intermediate"...

Hy, how are you doing now? I hope you're doing well today and forever. Kamu tentu akan familiar dengan sebuah kalimat yang menyatakan bahwa "setiap pertemuan, akan ada perpisahan". Sebuah pertemuan akan selalu membawa kebahagiaan, tapi bukan berarti setiap perpisahan akan membawa kesedihan, karena terkadang hal baik dan buruk akan tiba tanpa kita minta, dan  mau tidak mau kita harus menerima. Kita juga tidak bisa mengatur mereka yang datang dan pergi dalam kehidupan kita, entah mungkin karna takdir atau mungkin karna sudah menjadi hukum alam saja bahwa manusia akan selalu datang dan pergi pada waktu yang telah ditetapkan. Entah apa yang kadang membuat kita selalu berharap bahwa dia yang datang akan menetap, walaupun nantinya kita akan dihancurkan oleh realita bahwa kita memang dipertemukan tapi tidak untuk selamanya. Ada beberapa orang yang mungkin berpendapat bahwa terkadang kita perlu dipertemukan dengan mereka agar kita bisa bertemu dengan seseorang yang lebih baik, ki...

 Hy, how are you doing? I hope you're doing good like I did. Aku nggak tau hal ini bakal sama atau nggak dengan hal yang lagi kamu alamin saat ini, tapi mungkin untuk saat ini aku sedang ada di fase ini. Seperti pada umumnya, dari masa kanak - kanak masuk TK sampai akhirnya lulus dari perguruan tinggi yang kurang lebih menghabiskan waktu 19 tahun dalam mencari ilmu. Tentunya bukan suatu hal mudah untuk sampai pada titik ini, dengan beribu pengalaman selama bersekolah dan pengetahuan ilmu yang cukup yang pada akhirnya kita akan menjual apa yang kita dapatkan selama bersekolah atau lebih tepatnya kita tentunya akan terjun kedalam dunia kerja yang mungkin belum pernah kita temui sebelumnya. Untuk beberapa orang diluar sana mungkin akan bilang "yaudah tinggal cari kerja aja" but it's not that easy for me yang mungkin belum benar - benar siap terjun kedalam dunia kerja. Butuh waktu untuk mengembalikan kepercayaan diri dan merasa pantas atas apa yang ada pada diri kita saat...

Hello, how's life?  I hope you're doing good like I do. It's been a long time since I didn't write a month ago. I don't exactly know whether my writing will be related to you or not, maybe not for today or even tomorrow, but this is what I am going to write is about my feeling. Like how much I am scared about this, not for anyone who comes into my life, but for me.  Some lyrics of the song make me realize something that might happen in my life, maybe in a good way or vice versa, but I do believe that kinda God's plan always gives us some lesson. Isn't it? "some people come in your life for a reason, others they come in a life for a season" It is such a good sentence to me and means a lot to me. It makes me realize that whoever comes into my life will always have time to go and we never know that. Sometimes they could bring us happiness and feels like we never get sadness or some people could bring us feels like it's really hard and hurt us so m...

 Hy, how are you? As always, I'm doing very good now and I hope you do.  Kamu tau kan kalau setiap manusia pasti punya kelebihan dan kekurangannya masing - masing? dan aku harap kamu sadar akan hal itu. Setiap orang bahkan pernah merasa 'insecure', merasa belum pantas dan belum cukup dengan apa yang dirinya punya. Ketahuilah bahwa Allah telah menciptakan manusia dengan bentuk sesempurna mungkin, dengan memiliki anggota tubuh yang lengkap juga akal untuk berfikir. Manusia hanya perlu mengembangkan apa yang dirinya punya agar mempunyai nilai lebih untuk terus berusaha menjadi versi terbaik masing - masing.  Terkadang orang - orang lupa bahwa hidup tak selamanya sama, tak selamanya lurus, tak selamanya naik ataupun turun. Setiap manusia punya proses masing - masing dalam menjalankan hidupnya tanpa perlu melihat apa yang sudah orang lain punya. Mereka tidak akan pernah bisa menyamaratakan standar hidup seseorang dengan yang lainnya, manusia hanya perlu fokus dengan apa yang s...